ive got a new dog named peugot.

and school ends wednesday for me...

schools gonna be out in a few weeks. its weird how time can pass by so quickly and things that you used to find uncomfortable, or awkward, or annoying don't feel like that anymore.. i mean like when school started last august i fucking hated it, i hated waking up in the morning, i hated not knowing anyone, i hated PARKING, and now its just a routine in between sleep and work.my GPA is for sure gonna drop this semester but its ok, i just know it means i have to work less next semester and study more. im taking summer one and two at STC. i think ill do well since its only 2 classes, plus i plan on cleping out of Spanish and or American history one and two. i want to try to graduate in three years under that 4 year loan. where if you go to college and you graduate in 4 years all your loans are forgiven. that would be so snazzy to go to college for free :]


ive got an extra dog now, not sure what its name is...its REALLY tiny but i think its supa cute. i wanted to name it toyota cuz its foreign but my brother said that was lame...oh well.

i feel old and responsible now <3 <3 its a nice feeling sometimes.


always do the right thing.

im so gay. i make plans and never go through with them.
i lack this keeping plans skill.



and i never fucking bought a lomography. wtf. i need to get a life.

im slackking!!!! bleh!

and i also need to shave my legs :P

oh god whats new with life.

im noticing that people have lots of negativity in them, and im wondering if im that way too?
you don't suck, you arnt ugly, your are smart. like i know i say "ugh kill me now" alot, but that just translates to "I want to take a fucking nap and not go to work forever!" i guess it has to do with the way i was brought up. Everyone in my family always keeps our own problems to ourselves no matter how fucked up they are. It seems pretty unhealthy to me, well at least for me it was, i couldn't do that for very long, i went crazy and cried alot. Now, for some weird reason i can tell anyone and everyone anything about my life, even if its shameful or embarrassing. Is that the problem with other people? are they too embarrassed about their problems that they refuse to let it out? what makes someone belive they are not good enough?! i don't understand it! i refuse to believe that im just another girl, im fucking different! and awesome at that! why doesn't everyone else think that way about themselves?! they are too!!, well maybe not as awesome as me, but thats not my point! i just wish people could believe in themselves more. just a late night thought

in other news, i pierced my septum. don't know if i like it on me yet. ill give it more time. Yuffie had 4 puppies, i had this huge chem test that although i studied many hours for, it still was hard as hell. ive got this weekend off and i plan on cleaning my room :], dyed my hair a funny color again, saw the stars tonight, watched tenacious D the series, and droveeee

i was watchin a the news with my dad today and something came up about kids being spoiled by their parents and my dad says " you see, them blah blah, thats you blah blah ", i responded, "what have you EVER bought me?" he shut up and i walked away.

ali made me think about livejournal today. wow its been god knows when since ive written in this thing.


ok so whats new with me since like 9723947 years ago?

well i used to work at coffee zone then i quit cuz i got a job at walgreens as a pharmacy tech. i love it very much in the pharmacy. my coworkers and bosses are awesome and they buy me pizza and water all the time :]. because of the new job i gots chingos more money which i use to pay for my school, and the insurance on my car....i owe pan am 791 dollars!! ah!!! ive been painting some cool stuff lately like mario, and funky head, and some other yunk. but i usually give them to people so that they can keep it in their rooms :} i used to jog like everyday, but beacaus of work i havent and im feeling a lot more jiggly. i kinda want to get an mp3 player so i can start running again to music, but i dont really have losts of music, so i think i might have to borrow peoples cds? would that be ok with anyone? am i talking to no one here? hmm what else. ive made alot more friends and im really excited about that. i guess im being more charismatic and carefree, but rude at the same time, and people like it. i went to my first graveyard at night the other day, it was scarryyyyy. i just realized i have like 40 paris of shoes and i wear them alllll :] hmm i want to get a tattoo of a brain and a skeleton! because i love anatomyss. i have more to say but the phone just rang so ill update tommarow again. :D

i start working at wallgreens today...plus at the coffee shop, and im at school.....its gonna be a LONGGGGG DAY.

im gonna be a cowgirl for halloween at liquid assets
and a french maid for my sisters party
and i hope thats it!


ugh

ok so things that have happend in my world

someone stole my lawnmower, it was my dads fault.
my dog ate my brothers mp3 player.
im working at coffee zone on the weekends.
ive been running everyday.
im passing all my classes with AAAAAA's
i need to clean my car.
ive got a paper due next week.
i want another puppy!
and thats all i can think of right nowwww.

i was reading alis livejournal, and its true, EVERYONE is on myspace at the computer labs in the library. Its just the way it is.

So im really excited that were already in the month of september!! woo hoooo that means time is flying by!!
i hope i get to take my car with me to san antonio in january, that way i can go to san marcos and austin on the weekends...and home too.
man i cant wait to be away from my parents!!

gross the weekends almost over!

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair
You kno you just keep me hanging round
You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't wanna see my tears
So why are yous till standing here
Just watching me drown
And it's alright
Yeah, I'll be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just, take your love and hit the road
Cause nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go
Now you can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
You can get it over with and let me move on
Don't concern yourself with this mess you left for me
I can clean it up you see
Just as long as your gone
You're not making up your mind
It's killin' me
You're wasting time
I need so much more then that
Leave the pieces when you go
Leave the pieces when you go
Yeah
Yeah
Yeah
Leave the pieces when you go

i fucking passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
take that america!!!!!!!



hurry up time!!! pass pass pass!!!!!!

!! so i put some cowboy boots on layway and im excited!!
theyre really nice :D
but its alot of money so i dont think ill get them out till like foreverrrrr
i also bought a new pair of running shoes for all the running i do....not really


oh and im gonna go to UTSA instead of texas state because TS does not offer pharmacy!! them jerks
then i will transfer to UT Austin !!!!! wooo hoooo
all this will happen in january!!








byeee

ughhhhhhhhh
ok are you supposed to take the bible and the revalations literally or figuratively?
literally- armageddon soon/now
figurativly- always keep hope
then theres the whole thing that john (writer of revaltiaons) wrote this for his people in his time to give them hope about their situation.

but then if you take revalations lit or fig should you take the rest of the bible that same way?
or can you just pick and choose what you want? isnt that what most religions do? pick and choose?
but is that wrong to do?
i think the bibles a big book that gives us stories on how to be good people and do good things.




and all these people interpret the bible in so many different ways!!! why!!!! and what religion does it so correctly? and why are there so many belivers?
geez thanks history channel for making me think at 1 in the morning!!!!!! jerk!!

my pharmacy test is on saturday...i hope i do well.....
tuesday at 1-130ish batman will be appearing inside texas state bank at the coffee shop, be there to take pictures with him and get an autograph.

im stuck in a situation that i really dont want to be stuck in and i dont know what to do and all i can think of is....................
its time for me to meditate :/

i saw some crazy chineses people do some crazy acrobatic stuff yesterday!! it was neatttt
im gonna be working everyday from now on :( 1-5 at texas state bank come and visit porfavor.
so cedric left and i dont know when hes coming back :/ what a weird boy.
summers almost halfway goonne!

i havent done much lately.
just work and jog and relax.
i painted some stuff today, geez i never realized how many art supplies i have.
im in the mood to get dressed up, i think there should be a party where all the ladies have to wear dresses
and drink lemonade.
i got paid on wednesday, and now i only have 10 dollar of that left.
i dont get paid again until the 5th :(
is it weird to have the feeling of your heart split in two?

i hate how my ideas are verry scattered, and i cannot keep focus on anything for very long, and i have a short attention span!!!! ahhhghghghgahagh!! im so mad at myself for being so ADD!!! i want to be able to write something or talk about something without jumping to something else because i always do!!! and i need to be slapped everytime i interrupt someone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn you brain!!



oh and i had a really fun day today with amy
and then with amy and jorge
and then with amy jorge and emily
and then with amy jorge emily ali (for a little while) kate kendra and adrian




i have so much eneergy right now and i dont know what to do........
i already cleaned my living room. and washed dishes and its like LATE.
damn you sugar!!!!



ugh.............

everythings exactly the same, nothings really over.
i still have to work on tuesday, clean my room, wash my yuffie, and eat.
i just get graduate tommarow and get some free food.

i think im gonna take ALOT of pictures tommarow.

i cant believe the year has gone by this fast.
i had some great times and some rough ones.
i love all the new friends ive made :D
and im sad that i lost some

i like the idea of school
its a great little community within a community
where you get to interact with people you might never have met and learn new things from them
thanks memorial! haha

i hope everyone else enjoyed their high school years
i regret ALOT of things that i did/do
but i guess those things were meant to happen
its like a jigsaw puzzle.
you start out with 1000 random peices
work on the edges first because they are the foundation of your puzzle (yourself...)
mess up ALOT because all the peices look the same
but end up with a great masterpiece
i know, that was dorky but whatever :P